This is what I know: God is still God and God is still good.

I don’t always understand why God chooses to do what He does or why things happen the way they do.   I felt this way when my brother-in-law passed away and I feel this way again today as a good friend and ministry partner was killed in the terrorist attacks here in Burkina. Mike loved the Burkinabé as much as any one person could. He was an amazing husband and an amazing father to not only his children, but to all the children at the orphanage he ran with his wife. AND more than anything, Mike loved God with all of his heart. He was doing amazing things in this country for widows, orphans & many others and I don’t understand why God would choose to take Him now. I can’t make any sense of it, BUT I know that God is still God and that He is still good…if only I could convince my heart of this tonight.

This is what I know: God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, of love and of self-discipline.

With all that has happened in the last 24 hours I have started to battle with fear. I don’t want to allow fear to enter my heart. I know that God is in control and that He has our days numbered. I know that I could return to the States and though I may feel safer, it doesn’t mean that I would be protected from hard times or even death any more than I am protected here. I have to put my trust in God’s plans. I know all of this…now I just need to convince my heart to believe it as I face each new day.

This is what I know: We are told to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us.

After these attacks and the death of Mike, this is very difficult for me to accept. I know it is what I am supposed to do and somehow I have to convince my heart of this.

This is what I know: The Lord gives and takes away, but I should choose to say, “blessed be the name of the Lord”.

God really used this verse in my life when my brother-in-law passed away. I remember processing this and coming to terms with what it meant for me at that time. Today my heart is aching for Mike’s wife, 4 children and the rest of his family.  Mike was doing so much for this country and the Burkinabé.  He had so  many dreams of how God could use him to accomplish great things for the glory of God.  I think of this, of all the other people who lost lives, of their families and the Burkinabé and though I have so many unanswered questions, I can say once again with an aching heart, “The Lord gives and takes away, but I will choose to say, ‘Blessed be the name of the Lord’”.